About me. I read so many pages telling me “how to write the perfect ‘About Me’ page” and I’m still not sure where to even start. I wanted it to be cute. And funny. And all those things that will make people want to stay and hang out on my website. But mostly, I wanted it to be real. I wanted to know (and other women to know), that we are not alone. Let me tell you what I mean by this…
I feel like I’m evolving. I don’t know if that makes sense to you or just sounds weird…but that’s the best way I know how to put it. Some people may even say I’m having a serious identity crisis. And ya know what? Maybe I am. But here’s the thing: I ABSOLUTELY LOVE IT! I’m growing. In so many ways, and on so many levels. As a person. As a Christian. As a wife and mother. And my favorite part: AS A WOMAN. It’s been awesome and beautiful. But it’s also been painful and eye-opening. I want to share all of this. I want to make friends. I want to ask all of the stupid questions so other women can reach out and say “Oh my gosh! I was wondering the same thing!”. Eventually, I hope to have a category that covers pretty much everything. And I mean everything. Here is what I have in mind…
Recipes. I love to cook. And I’m all over the board when it comes to what I cook. I grew up on home cooking, mostly done by my grandma, so I love all of the southern fixin’s. Mashed potatoes, green beans, pot roast. All of the dishes that make you want to unbutton your jeans, lay on the couch, watch football, and take a nap. The kind of food that says “it’s after church on a Sunday afternoon”. But on the other hand, I’m trying to find a balanced eating lifestyle that is healthy for my entire family, but still has enough taste that my husband won’t wince when he tries to eat it. I get most of my cooking inspiration from 3 things. Pinterest, cookbooks, and my grandmother. My grandmother is 91-years-old and is still on her game when it comes to knowing her way around a kitchen. A few years ago she gave me a small, handwritten cookbook she had of all (most) of her staple recipes. Today, it is one of my most prized possessions and I look forward to cooking my way through it, and sharing my experiences, with you guys. One thing you should know “About Me”: I’ll be honest. I’ll totally show my screw-ups too. Seriously…the other day I almost caught some parchment paper on fire because I put it in the oven like a dummy. Like, who does that?? Um…well, I guess I do. But as I said, I will share all kinds of different recipes…and probably some un-edible things as well, just so we can share a laugh together.
Fashion and Beauty. GAHHHH!!! I hate to love this part of my evolution. I’ll be straight up. I have absolutely no fashion sense. No kidding. I even wrote a blog post about it, which you can read by clicking here. I’ve never put too much effort into how I dress. Don’t get me wrong. It takes me FOR-EV-ERRRRR to get ready to go anywhere. I’m talking a few hours. I could be quicker, but I like to take my sweet time and honestly, my hair can be a real bitch sometimes. Now that I have a two-year-old daughter and another due in a month, I know I don’t have that luxury. But if I’m being brutally transparent, I feel like I’ve let myself go. That kindof hurts to even type out loud for all to see. But like I said, I want to be real. So there it is. Yoga pants are some of my favorite things in the whole world and I hate it when people call them “not pants”. But I was wearing them everyday and I don’t do that much yoga. I’ve gone so long without applying make-up that when I did go to put some on, it was almost like I forgot how. I’ve waited so many days to wash my hair that my head would start to itch. I went months without drinking water. My diet was embarrassing. I did not love myself. I was too busy loving my newborn daughter and being a stay-at-home mom that I completely let myself go. Listen. I know that THAT’S OKAY! I know that it’s okay to somewhat let your appearance go when you’re a new mom and have had so many different life changes. But when putting your appearance on the back-burner leads to having horrible, non-existent self esteem, that’s NOT okay. And that’s where I was. I know there are so many people out there that will tell me I need to love my inner self, and it shouldn’t matter what I look like. And you’re right. But like I said before, I’m trying to evolve on ALL levels. And when I like how I look, I FEEL BETTER. I have happier days. I have more confidence. And who doesn’t love confidence? To be blunt, this has been probably the MOST FUN part of my evolution. Getting to shop. Completely changing my style. Learning how to contour and make my eyebrows NOT look horrendous. Trying new beauty products. Actually WANTING to take a selfie and be in pictures. Figuring out what the heck an accessory actually is and how it works. You know, I’m 36-years-old and I think this is the first year of my life that I’ve actually paid attention to what the style is. It’s a whole new avenue of getting ready for me and to make this hot mess look decent in a “mother allowed” amount of time is challenging. I’m up for a challenge. I’ll admit though, the Brazilian wax I’m going to try out in a couple of months makes me a little nervous. But I still want to try it.
Books, books, and more books. I’m a complete bookworm nerd when it comes to books. I’m a hard-copy kind a girl though. I love a book I can smell, write in, and bookmark in a special way. My favorite genre is the motivational, inspirational, self-help kind. Think Rachel Hollis/John C. Maxwell type stuff. But I am down to read anything. One of my goals is to start reading more classics and basically anything out of my comfort zone genre. And then I want to come here and talk about them with you guys. I love giving and getting good book recommendations. My dream is to one day be an amazing writer. In order to do this, I need to read. A LOT. I’m hoping the readers of this section of my blog can come together to talk books, blogs, and any other good stuff worth taking a look at. Let’s be total nerds together, ya’ll! It’ll be fun!
My Faith. I’m going to try to keep this little part of my “About Me” page short and sweet because I will be more in depth with my blog posts on this subject. Just know that I was raised as a Christian…but I was not a very good one. I’m not talking about church attendance or how my community saw me. I’m talking about how I lived. My actual relationship with God. And the generic communication that I pretended was prayer. All of this led to me questioning the faith I had been raised on…which ultimately led to me searching for (and finding) what I now truly believe. I’m studying the Bible and the things I am learning are changing my life. This stuff is too good not to share because, I know, really looking inward and finding your higher power is scary, intimidating stuff. And it’s even worse if you think you’re doing it alone. Especially if you don’t even know where to start, like I didn’t. God works in mysterious ways. And it’s here that I’m going to share my incredibly sacred, personal journey.
I’m currently 34 weeks pregnant and planning to launch this blog in 4 days. I’m also typing this out right now with a broken finger. I’ve owned this domain name since February, and it’s currently July. I’m a woman who left her small-town home and steady job to be a pipeline wife and stay-at-home mother that travels the nation with her husband and 2-year-old daughter. I have a twelve year old son that stayed back with his dad in Southern Illinois. I miss him everyday and it took me a long time not to be overwhelmed by the mom guilt. I love my life and the path the I’m on, but I’m still adjusting to and learning the ropes. I use to believe it was about finding my place in this world. Now I know it’s about CREATING my place in this world. I’m so happy you’re here so we can share our experiences with each other. Here’s to evolving women, everywhere!!!